Mothers Day
My guys, Thank you for the smiles this weekend. Thank you for forcing me to regain the strength needed to continue fighting. While I feel guilty for smiling in the middle of this, It felt good to smile. It felt good to talk about the memories we all made before this took over our lives. It was a nice reminder that life isn’t always dark. I can’t wait to smile and laugh again while making new memories with our girls.
I hope all of the mamas had a good weekend. I hope all of the mamas and grandmas that couldn’t be with their babies because of the EVIL that surrounds us were able to have a few moments like we did this weekend. Keep fighting. We stand with you forever.
Mike and Kody planned this beautiful little trip to Savannah for the weekend. They are such genuine men, and I am so grateful for them. All of us girls are so lucky to have them in our lives.
I miss my girls so much, and I can't help but imagine Rylee running around in this little courtyard and Kiana waking up with the baby. I hope they know how much they are loved and that the beautiful bond we shared never fades away. I can't wait to see them and hold them again. I wish I could take the pain away from all of them. From my daughter. I wish they could give it to me.
That pain we all feel is only alleviated momentarily through sleep and even then, is short-lived as the nightmares take over. And when the morning comes, the feeling of dread sets in as the harsh reality of life hits you like a ton of bricks. Every. Single. Day.
I can't help but wonder how the evil people who have caused so much trauma and pain to our family will spend their weekend. Do they ever think about the families they have hurt? Do they feel any remorse for their actions? It's hard to say, but I know that justice will be served in the end.
Life is truly beautiful, but it's also fragile and unpredictable. We didn't live life to the fullest before and didn't appreciate each other as much as we should have. The lessons learned through this are invaluable and I know that we will come out stronger than ever.
I love you, my girls. I love you, my beautiful children, Kody & Kiana. Thank you for making me a mama. Thank you Kiana, for making me a Nannum. Thank you Mike, my rock.
And Zoey- I am her therapy human and she returns the favor.
I love you all so much.
Happy Mother's Day weekend. I hope everyone has a beautiful time with family.